Sleepyhead

I have another 1 hour until I finish all my classes. I love Friday because I only have 2 classes with my Form 1 kids. Then after recess I'll be free as a bird. I am super duper sleepy today but I have to bring my sisters out as I have promised them a trip to K-Box. I might sleep there I think. That's all for now. I'll update again soon.

Love,
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Breathe easy

16 April 2011

I am back. After almost a month living in a world full of crappy things, now I can breathe easily and most importantly, I can get plenty of rest. Although I miss the busy lifestyle (because I managed to shed a few pounds), but I prefer to get more rest or else I would get sick.

So where have I been? I had the most hectic schedule from March until early April. I didn't even get to celebrate my mom's and my own birthdays. I was in Labuan for English drama competition from 31 March until 3 April, my mom's birthday was on 2 April. See? I was miles away from her on her special day. It made me sad and I cried when I sang her the birthday song. I have been planning to bring her to K-Box and surprise her with cake and presents but at the last minute I was asked to go to Labuan. Sorry mom, I hope I can celebrate your birthday next year, all 5 of us.

Then, after I had finished all my business in Labuan, I was again busy with English Drama in Kuching and I didn't get to celebrate my birthday with my beloved family. How pathetic is that? I was seriously bumped. But at the end of the day I bought two cakes and celebrated it with my "twins" (the students who were born on the same day as me). I did have fun, I truly did because a special guest appeared, him. He took a few minutes off practice to be with all of us. :)

Now is May and it is exam month. You won't find me anywhere except bury deep down in all those test papers, but I love my job. Seriously!

Love,

Invigilating exam

I am currently invigilating exam for the class that I am teaching. To tell you the truth, it is not fun because I tend to fall asleep after a few minutes. I would rather teach as I can walk around and shoot them with killer questions, or sometimes we can do activities based on their creativity and imagination. When invigilating, I can only sit around and do nothing except watching them. I wanted to bring my laptop in but something fishy is going on with my laptop and I feel like throwing it outside. *sigh* That's life anyway and I am grateful for everything.

Love,
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Concerto

I have just finished watching my school band performed their preview concert. It was awesome. Too bad I had to sit alone. I couldn't get enough of the music. One hour is too short but they had to wrap up early as most of the students' parents are already waiting for them. There are 2 guest conductors from Northfolk Music School, came in just to watch and at the same time giving them tips on improving their performance for Wind Orchestra competition next month. I am extremely hungry now but I refuse to eat alone. If my sisters are with me, I might asked them to go to McDonald for supper. Then again, I think I just cook something later. For now, let me just enjoy my time alone.

Love,
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Just testing

I'm trying to post an entry by using my Blackberry. I hope it works as I don't really have time to post by using my notebook. Plus I can post entries wherever I go, even in the toilet when doing business. *wink*

Love,
Ms. K
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He made me smile all day

I was browsing through the wall of my Facebook when I saw this:

I felt so sorry for him, so I sent him a poem, just to give him the encouragement that he needs. I know people like him won't have time to read my message. But to my surprise...

He really made me smile all day long. Now I can't sleep. Thank you Fahrin. :) You make me fly so high.

Love,

Sick, sick, sick

I have been neglecting my blog lately. I didn't mean to. I have been sick for the past 3 days. I was down with fever, flu and cough. A perfect combo. Usually I only get sick early in the year, due to the weather. It has been raining heavily these past few days and sometimes I forgot to bring my umbrella to work, thus I had to run in the rain. 

On the first day, I found out I only have paracetamol. So in the afternoon, I went out and bought cough syrup, soluble (for flu), another bottle of paracetamol, and guess what? I managed to add Maybelline Magnum Super Film mascara in it. It doesn't mean that when you're sick, you have to look sick. I still look after my appearance. I'm not the one who likes to look pale and sick in front of others. I prefer to look fresh and healthy, no matter how sick I am.

The rest of the days, until now, were torturous for me. I couldn't stand the air-cond, I get cold easily, coughing like there's no tomorrow, not enough sleep, lost some weight and spent most of my time napping. A lot of work are left pending. So tonight, I decided to finish everything so that I can concentrate on doing other work next week.

Love,

Pergilah Ayu

The lyrics and the song means a lot to me. 

Kosong hidupku tanpa mu

cerminku membayangkan

bayanganmu

pameran kaseh ku layu

tiada dirimu tiada untukku

Tinggalkan ku dlm angan ku

sakitku mencintaimu

deritaku

merinduimu

lemah hati menginginkanmu

Kau hilang terus kau menyepi

tawaku bila ku ketahui

berita kau sudah berpunya

hancur hatiku

berkeping keping jadinya

Hilangku bukan kerana cinta

hilang

ku bukan untuk menyeksa

bagiku semua tiada berharga

biarku telan semua

derita

Chorus 1

Pergilah kau pergi dariku

biarkankujalani hidup

tanpamu

tiada cinta dan kasehmu

meski hati merelai

rap

Mati hariku

dikotak sepi

di situ kau mula mahu mengenalinya

langkah ku songsang mula ku

sedari

semula ku hias kau jauh dah pergi ya

Putus komunikasi kau elakkan diri

ku mencari jalan kembali kau mahu terus pergi

ku ingatkan kau memori kau

tutupkan telinga

nyata tiada kita nyata tiada jalan penyambungnya

YA

ALLLAH

MAHA PEMURAH DAN MAHA PENCIPTA

terima kasih atas pertemuan antara aku

dan dia

jika nyata bukan dia pemilik tulang rusukku

kikiskanlah pesonanya

dari kedua mata

dengan kelebihan dan kekurangan yang ada

bahagia kanlah

mereka ku doakannya

pada MU kupohon sucikan hatiku

sehinga dapat melaksana

kehendak dan rencana MU

AMIN

Chorus 2

Pergilah pergilah ayu

jangan kau

hiraukan tentang diriku

pergi kau pergi kau ayu

kuanggapkan ini satu

tragedi

Kau hapuskan semua yang kita bina

kau hancurkan

harapan ku

untuk hidup bahgia bersamamu

Berkali kau

bersumpah untuk berubah

tapi janji kosongmu

tak sudah sudah,entah sampai

bila

kaulepaskan saja aku

chorus 2

Pergilah pergilah ayu

jangan kau

hiraukan tentang diriku

pergi kau pergi kau ayu

kuanggapkan ini satu

tragedi

chorus 1

Pergilah kau pergi dariku

biarkankujalani hidup

tanpamu

tiada cinta dan kasehmu

meski hati merelai

Love,

I decided

I have decided to write in two languages in my blog, one is definitely English (though you may find some grammatical errors but I don't care because I like to write in English) for normal and day-to-day stuff and the other one will be my native language, which is Malay, especially when I am writing about personal stuff. I feel more comfortable writing about my feelings in my native language (though I am not so good at it but at least I can improve myself). So just watch out for the next entry.

Love,

Meeting or mating?

While some people prefer to hang out at the office waiting for meeting to start, I prefer to go back to my quarters to refresh myself. What is the point of staying at the office doing nothing? Other than staring at the netbook for hours, there's nothing much to do because it is still early and some of us have not entered the class yet. 

Today I only had one class with the Form 4 students, first EST class with them. It is a super duper quiet class. They only talked when I asked them questions. Gosh, I can't stand it. I have to think of something to make the class livelier. It is easy to do so when I teach English because there are so many activities to be carried out. But it is different with EST. All reading and no play. I want my class to be interesting. I tried to crack some jokes and thank God (syukur Alhamdulillah) they responded and laughed. *phew* I really need to find some ways to attract them cause they really want to learn the subject.

I thought I can have some rest today, after yesterday's ordeal (drunken monkey?). But the head of my department just told me that the meeting has to be rescheduled to today at 3 pm. Since he is always nice to me (for the past two years, he has been mentoring me on how to teach/handle EST class), so maybe I can just go and pretend that I am going for a movie instead. Besides, a consultant is going to join us for this meeting. I met her this afternoon and I have to say that I am very impressed with her so I am looking forward to gain something from and working with her.

It's 2 pm now, I still have time to sleep. More updates later!

Love,

I couldn't even walk properly

Pretty hectic day for me today, until I realized something this evening (5 January): I didn't take any food since last night (4 January) until after I finished Scout meeting at about 4.30 pm (5 January). How crazy is that? If it goes on like this I won't be surprised that I will be as thin as Paris Hilton by the end of the year. But there are some bad effects as well, migraine and gastric. I suffered both by the end of the day, resulting me to walk back to my house like a drunken monkey. It was horrible. I guess I learned my lesson the hard way and I promise to take a very good care of myself. 

Picture taken from here.

Love,

Second day... of working

It is the second day of working. What? Only second day? Means there are more than 300 days to go before the long awaited holiday? Ok, ok, I am just kidding. I really look forward to start working since mid December because I feel so helpless staying at home doing nothing. Besides I think I spent more money when I was on holiday (i.e. movies, karaoke, dining, shopping, etc). I know today is only the second day, but I hope I can achieve more and succeed in my career this year. No Less procrastinating, less playing, focus and concentrate more and perform better than last year. I know I can do it!

Picture taken from here.

Love,

Impian saya (My dreams)

I meant to post this a long time ago, but I kept on procrastinating, thus, it only appears in this brand new year. For this entry, I am going to write in my native language.

Setiap orang mempunyai impian. Ok, scratch that. I don't want to begin with a sentence from secondary school essay reference book. Let's restart.

Saya akui, saya memang mempunyai impian yang yang sangat tinggi, tetapi bagi saya munasabah dan dapat dicapai seandainya saya yakin dengan kemampuan diri saya sendiri. Untuk orang  yang mempunyai "self-esteem" yang rendah seperti saya, cepat menggelabah dan panik sebelum mencuba, perkara yang susah sememangnya akan menjadi lebih susah untuk dibuat.

Tetapi kali ini, saya telah bertekad untuk mencapai impian saya. Jadi apakah impian saya? Impian saya ialah untuk melanjutkan pelajaran peringkat Master dan PhD di Amerika Syarikat. Senang sahaja bukan? Lagi senang jika mempunyai sumber kewangan yang kukuh. Kenapa saya memilih negara barat yang sangat jauh? Kenapa tak di negara sendiri sahaja? Ada sebab-sebabnya kenapa saya nekad membuat pilihan ini.

Pertama, kos yang saya nak ambil belum ada lagi di sini. Apa kos itu? Biarlah rahsia dulu. Ayah pernah mencadangkan dan hendak menaja jika saya memilih Australia, tetapi bagi saya, kos ini sudah betul-betul establish di Amerika Syarikat berbanding dengan negara-negara lain. Lagipun, saya tidak mahu bergantung sepenuhnya dengan ayah dan mahu melanjutkan pelajaran menggunakan hasil titik peluh sendiri. Pada saya itu lebih berbaloi dan berharga.

Kedua, saya mempunyai impian untuk menjelajah kesemua 50 buah negeri di Amerika Syarikat, termasuk Hawaii dan Alaska. Saya mahu merasai pengalaman bermain salji, duduk bersantai sambil membaca buku di Central Park, minum kopi di kafe tepi jalan di New Orleans sambil menikmati alunan muzik jazz, memakai topi koboi dan bercakap dalam aksen western di Texas, bersantai di tepi pantai di Hawaii, tidur di motel-motel dan banyak lagi. Indah bukan?

Yang terakhir sekali mungkin memang sangat mengarut. Saya perlu mencipta memori baru dan melupakan segala-galanya yang pernah berlaku di sini. Kawan saya pernah bertanya, "K, kenapa kamu selalu lari apabila berdepan dengan masalah?". Saya bukan lari dari masalah, kalau boleh, saya mahu hadapi semuanya. Tetapi bagi insan yang complicated seperti saya, masalah yang saya maksudkan ialah masalah yang berkaitan dengan hati dan perasaan. Ya, saya sangat lemah apabila berdepan dengan situasi yang melibatkan hati (matters of the heart). Apabila saya suka dengan seseorang, seboleh-bolehnya saya akan lari kerana saya tidak mahu merumitkan keadaan yang telah sedia rumit. Saya tahu agak susah nak difahami kerana saya sendiri pun tidak faham. Selagi saya berada di sini, selagi itu hati saya akan berasa tidak tenteram. Jadi saya perlu berada lebih jauh daripada orang yang saya suka supaya saya dapat melupakan orang itu dan move forward/move on.

Jadi, pada petang tadi, saya telah mengisi dan menghantar borang-borang untuk melanjutkan pelajaran ke peringkat Master di Amerika Syarikat melalui online dan berdoa agar mendapat tawaran secepat yang mungkin. Kalau boleh, saya mahu pergi tahun ini juga, tetapi secara logiknya, saya perlu menunggu sekurang-kurangnya sehingga awal tahun depan. Jadi, mulai dari hari ini, saya akan menghitung hari dengan penuh kesabaran. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segalanya. Amin.

Saya rasa kamu pasti dapat membuat kesimpulan daripada entri ini bukan?

"The one who wants me, I don't want to. The one who I want, doesn't want me."

Love,

2011

It's the second day of 2011, still not too late to wish everyone a very Happy New Year. May this year brings everything good to all of us.

Love,

Relationship? No?

Many people have asked me about my relationship status, including my dear beloved mother, and sad to say I have to disappoint each and everyone of them with my non-existent love life. I don't want to pretend to have an imaginary boyfriend just so that I have something to talk about with others. I prefer to come clean and confess that I have been 'riding solo' (Jason Derulo, 2010) for quite sometime now.

I would be lying if I tell you that I never cared about not having someone special in my life. Sometimes, I do feel lonely, especially when I am walking around the shopping mall and seeing couples everywhere. But I never felt that I am a loser, just because I am not in a relationship. 

So how do I cope with this? Well, you can just assume that I am a workaholic. Everyday I will try to bury myself in work so that I won't be thinking about my pathetic love life. Socializing with my friends and students, be proactive, finding something worthwhile to do, such as reading, writing, daydreaming, tending my virtual farm, watching movies which I downloaded, daydreaming again and again and again also help me a lot. 

I haven't really found someone who can truly sweep me off my feet, yet. In the past I have fallen for sweet-talkers who only talk, talk, talk and no action (by action, I don't mean 'bedroom action'). Now, I am so sick of sweet-talkers, so don't sweet-talk me just so that you can get whatever you desire from me cause I might bash you in the head.

My aunt used to ask me, what are the criteria that I look for in a man/future partner? Well, my answer is very simple: tall, dark and handsome (anyone?). Ok, actually I didn't give that answer, I just shrugged the question off. But now, it got me thinking. So, what do I look for in a man/future partner? Here are the criteria, if you want to know. If not, maybe you can go somewhere else.

1. Tall (taller than me that is)
2. Not too thin, but not too fat either
3. Sweet, not too handsome, just sweet looking
4. Must have sense of humour (no stupid and lame jokes please)
5. Smells nice, B.O. is a no-no
6. No facial hair (a nice and trimmed goatee or beard is acceptable)
7. Hygienic (bath at least three times a day)
8. Responsible
9. Religious, so that he can lead me to the right path
10. Likes to smile
11. Can be serious, depending on the situation
12. Respect others
13. Preferably non-smoker
14. Most importantly, someone who can take care of me and grow old together

See? I am not that demanding. I am still a simple girl at heart. As long as the man loves me, I will love him back because I am very loyal when it comes to the matter of the heart. Maybe the man is hiding somewhere over the rainbow, but nevertheless, I will keep on waiting and waiting. In the meantime, let me just enjoy my singlehood before it comes to an end, no? ;)

Love, 

I don't have any idea what to put in the title

I know, I know. In my last post here, I did mentioned that I will try to update my blog as often as I can. But every time when I open it, I would be staring at the blank page, wondering what to write. I don't want to write something lame, like "Today I went out, I ate this, I did that...", you get what I mean. I tried to read as many books as I can, but there is not much that you can get when you are reading chick lit (to me, reading chick lit is merely for pleasure, I don't really think but I imagine a lot, especially on the lovey-dovey and mushy gushy part, I mean who doesn't?).

But then again, giving long and winding excuses is also not an option, especially to me, since I have been blogging since 2005. So there shouldn't be any excuses not to update my blog as often as I can, right? *sigh* Sometimes, I just wish that I can write whatever that comes to my mind with ease, not pausing every other second to check on my farm (virtual farm that is). Well, I guess, a writer wannabe do get writer wannabe's block. Then again, it's not an excuse. See how complicated I can be?

Anyway, I will TRY my best to write anything and everything under the sky, except for something private and offensive. Just wish me luck and pray as hard as you can. ;)

Love,

Sweet love story

I found this story from Facebook, but I can't remember from who. A very sweet love story. Don't you wish you have a husband like him?

Bila aku teringat balik cerita nih..aku mesti tergelak sorang-sorang…

Alkisahnya…aku nih ditakdirkanlah kawin dengan sorang mamat nih..ntah dari mana la datangnya…mak aku yang suruh..dia kata budak nih baik la alim la pandai la..lepas tu terus kami kawin.

Masa first time kawin tu, memang kucar kacir gak arr rumah tangga kami..dan yang aku paling tak tahan tu dia memang selalu saja buat aku sakit hati…

Eiiiii…geramnya aku!!!

Mana taknya,aku basuh baju dia sekali la ngan baju aku..then lepas basuh..nak jadi cerita..ada lah plak baju dia yang turun warna melekat kat baju aku….haihhh..memang sakit hati…baju baru kot…mahal lagi!!! Then bila aku tanya dia..kenapalah tak bagitau aku yang baju dia ada yang turun warna..dengan slumber dia kata..

”Lah..awat tak tanya…”

Eiii..geramnya aku!!!

Selang beberapa hari, dia ada ajak aku pi shopping.Ok,fine..aku ikut jer la…weekend la katakan. Lepas tu nak jadi cerita, dia punyalah excited nak pi shopping..sampai aku kalih kalih belakang..HILANG!!..

Aku cari gak dekat dekat area situ kot kot ada tapi memang hampeh…Aku try call, tak angkat..call lagi pon tak angkat..huhh..tension betul!! Then, aku amik keputusan tunggu kat kereta jer..seminit,..lepas tu dua minit,… lepas tu….SEJAM KOT!! Huhh..memang sakit hati betul!! Then bila dia mai dekat kereta, aku tanya, pegi mana? kenapa call tak angkat??!! Yang aku tak tahan, dia dengan slumber jawab..

“Lah..gi shopping la sayang…owh..ada call ekk?? Alah..lupa nak bagi tau…terlupa bawa hanset..hehe..”

Eiiii..geramnya aku!!!!

 Seminggu lepas tuh..dia kata teringin nak makan masak ayam berempah dengan masak lemak cili  api.. ok..fine…aku masak jer…Tapi memang la aku nih tak la pandai masak sangat…tapi bolehlah klu setakat nak makan kan..aku hidang bagi dia makan…Masa first time dia suap kat mulut tuh…Aku bajet dia nak kata apa-apa..Tapi dia diam..Memang tak kata apa-apa pon sampai dia habis makan..Habis makan pon tak kata apa..

Aku pon confius…dia ni no respond..sedap ka tak?? Hmm..klu ikut aku la..orang yang masak ni la kan…aku rasa ok jah lah..tapi tak tau la orang yang makan nak kata apa..huhhh…..

Esok plak, time aku on the way nak balik dari tempat keje, kereta aku plak wat hal..tak boleh start..panik gak arr aku time tuh..malam dah nih..nak masuk Isyak dah…haihh..time aku balik keje lewat2 lah keta nak wat hal..then, aku call dia…

Yang aku tak boleh tahan tu..dia dengan slumber kata..

“Lah awat la call saya…call la mekanik…ingat call saya keta awak bleh jalan??….”

Eiii…geramnya aku!!!

Tapi…dia mai jugak lepas tuh…ada lah dia check apa ntah kt depan bonet tuh…dan lepas start…terus boleh…hmmm..dalam hati…aku kata,

“bleh la jugak mamat nih nak diharap…mekanik kecil-kecilan, janji free”…

Satu hari, dia ada bagitau yang dia kena pi outstation kat overseas. Dia kata pi kejap jah…2 MINGGU!!..hmm..aku memang no komen lah…dia nak pi buat keja dia…takkan nak kata tak boleh kot…keja arkitek…biasalah…busy la kot…

Tapi..memang agak sakit hati jugak lah..bleh dia lesap macam tu jah..lepas2 naik flight....kot2 la nak call bagitau dah sampai ka..ada kat mana ka…tapi memang hampeh!!..langsung dia tak call!! Kot2 la nak bagi emel ka..tapi memang tak dak…kosong inbox!!

Eiii…geramnya aku!!!

Pagi tuh..aku basuh baju…ok..sekarang aku dah taw dah baju mana yang turun warna…aku ambik satu persatu dalam bakul nak basuh..sampai la aku jumpa bungkusan misteri dekat bahagian bawah baju-baju tuh…jeng3..huishh..siap dengan surat lagi..

Suratnya berbunyi begini:

Kehadapan isteriku (cewahhh..),

            Semoga berada dalam keadaan yang sihat sentiasa…jangan marah-marah ek..hehe..Saya bukannya apa…saja tulih surat nih..bosan…tak tau nak buat apa…hihi

            Pertama sekali…saya nak bagi tau lah..mungkin awak tak kenal saya..tapi saya kenal jer awak…sejak awak darjah 6 lagi kot!! Haha..eh..awak tak ingat ka anak Pak Mail kawan ayah awak yang mai beraya kat umah awak time tuh??!! …Masa tuh..saya nampak awak dok main masak-masak kat belakang umah…hahaha…memang sangat lucu…saya nampak awak macam 'anak patung'..comel sangat…

Ishkk..awak ni..tak berasan ker??

            Keduanya, sori la pasal hal shopping tuh..memang saja jer saya tak mau bawa hanset time tuh…hihi..takot terkantoi…yer la…saya pi cari baju awak kot!! Ingat baju yang awak kata terkena warna tuh?? Huh…memang tension..susah btul nak cari..memang patut la mahal dan memang patot la awak bengang satu hari…hihi…

            Ketiganya, pasal ayam berempah dengan masak cili api yang awak masak…hmm…mesti awak bengang kan sebab saya no respond…huhu…sebab SEDAPPPP SAAANGAT  sampai saya jadi tak terkata…Eh,saya makan dalam masa 5 minit ja kot..ikut jam dinding kat umah kita…

Ishkk..awak ni..tak berasan ker??

            Keempatnya…time keta awak rosak…hmm..awak tau tak saya CANCELLLL appointment saya dengan klien penting dari overseas sebab nak pi kat awak??!! Lepas2 tuh..jenuh saya nak pujuk diorang balik…Tau tak saya langgar smua traffic light merah!! Baju saya basah dengan peluh masa saya sampai kat awak??

Ishkk..awak ni..tak berasan ker??

            Tapi lepas saya tahu saya kena pi outstation kt overseas..saya lagi seronok…happy glerr..sebab saya tau awak mesti rinduuu kat saya kan..kan2?? Saya memang saja jer tak call awak…hihi…tapi saya ok jah…saya rasa saya dah sampai dah kot lepas awak baca surat nih…

“Wow,look at the Eiffel Tower!! Fuyoo!!! Cantik kot!! “

Hahahahahaaaaaaaa..jangan jeles..(^-^)

            Last but not least…awak..awak jangan nakal-nakal ekk…sebab saya saaaaayang awak…

P/S: Try tengok sama x dengan baju awak yang rosak ari tu “bungkusan” nih…hihi

                                                                                                            Love,

                                                                                                            Suamimu

Exhausted

I am tired beyond words. Too many things to do and too little time. I feel like I have been buried underneath piles of work and there are three more weeks for me to get myself out of the mess. 

End of the year holiday will be spent mostly at home, giving moral supports to my sister, who is going to sit for her SPM later and also celebrating Christmas at my mother's hometown. I can't wait because I haven't been there for quite a long time. Hopefully I'll meet "the one " there. *Fingers crossed* 

On the other note, although I am single and mostly available, but I have been friends with a few guys. We exchange messages through Facebook and a few of them seriously annoyed the hell out of me with their stale jokes. When I say "sense of humour", I don't mean for the guy to tell stupid jokes all the time. It means the guy has to know when is the right time to spontaneously tells his jokes. 

But there's this one particular guy who keeps me entertain with his long messages and I always look forward to read them. He sounds very positive in every message and he has vision. Plus, he is not afraid to try new things, despite having a to-do list. I am beyond impressed with his achievement and philosophy. How I wish I can be as philosophical like  him as well. Then I wouldn't easily give up. He has confidence that others don't and he inspires me to fulfill my job a a chief invigilator during past examination. Truth is, I don't have confidence in myself, but after exchanging messages with him, I managed to do my job without fear. I look forward to hangout with him, that is if we can meet end of this year. This doesn't mean that I love him or whatsoever. I just love getting to know and be with someone so positive.

I guess I better pen off now as I have tons of work to do.Till then.

Love,

Sometimes they just get on my nerves

I love teaching, although sometime I do complain. I am very enthusiastic if the students are keen to learn. I am willing to do everything for them just as long as they want to gain knowledge. I might not be doing tremendous things but the little things that I did or do for them makes me proud to be in education line. Besides people always say that teaching is a very noble job.

But there is always something unpleasant in every beautiful things. For these two years, I have encountered a few rude and stubborn students who think that they are on top of the world. It makes me feel down at times, especially those who refuse to listen. Like yesterday. I brought my lower form students to study in the library. Suddenly, three upper form students came in and took the newspaper, without their teacher's permission of course.

At first, I let them, just as long as they don't disturb my kids. Then, two of them sat at the table where my kids were doing revision and started to disturb them. I gave them warning but they still continued doing it. I was angry and I told my kids to go to back to their class since they couldn't concentrate on their study anymore.

I was beyond angry so I just kept quiet until the end of the period when I gave them a little advice on how to become "manusia beradab". They really took my words in and they refused to go back. I really admire them because they are willing to study and score good marks for every subject.

I hope they will become better students until they have finished their study as they are the future leaders. But most importantly, I want them to respect others and treat everyone equally.

Love,

Movies marathon

I did something extraordinary yesterday with my sister. We watched three, I repeat, THREE movies in one day.

The Switch

Good actor and actress doesn't guarantee the movie will be any good. The plot is predictable, the flow of the story is very slow and there is nothing to look forward to in the movie. In fact, I yawned quite a few times in the cinema. Overall, I give 2/5 stars.




Eat, Pray, Love

This is the movie I have been waiting to watch since early this year. I heard a lot of good reviews about the book. I wanted to buy the book but I always don't have time to read it so I just waited for the movie. But eventually, I bought the book and it is still in the plastic bag. I know, I know. I will read it later. Back to the movie, it has a very simple plot but very insightful. The script is strong and I enjoyed every second of this movie. I am not a very big fan of drama movie but this movie deserves all the 5 out of 5 stars from me. Brilliant!




Charlie St. Cloud

This is a very touching movie. I can't imagine myself losing my siblings and make a promise to meet every sunset. It's mainly about letting go of something. In this case, letting go of a dead brother's spirit. I almost cried when the spirit told Charlie that it loves him and started to walk towards the 'light'. I've never been a fan of Zac Efron but I think he really shines in this movie and he got 4/5 stars from me.






We felt very satisfied and at the same time, my sister and I got to spend time to catch up and trading secrets. Maybe I'll be doing this again next month. Fingers crossed.

Love,

10 October 2010

What is so special about 10 October 2010 (10.10.10), apart from it comes only once in a thousand years? To some people, it might be a memorable and meaningful date as many would choose this date to get married, get engaged or perhaps breaking up (not a good way to remember the date).

But to me, it is just an ordinary date, when my life goes on as usual: wake up, hang out with my sisters, kiss my cat, eat, take bath and the list goes on. Nothing special is going on. I am not getting married, getting engaged or breaking up with anyone. I am single and free of all those burden. Even if I have someone, I still won't choose this date to get married because I don't want to share the same wedding anniversary with everyone.

So please don't get too excited over this date because life still goes on as usual and there is really nothing too special about the date.

P/S: By the way, today is World Mental Health Day, so Happy Mental Health Day everyone.

Love,

Free goodies

4 October 2010

So yesterday, I went to the shopping mall. Actually I planned to stay at home and relax, maybe mark a few papers a long the way. But I couldn't stop thinking about this particular person and immediately I felt extremely lonely.

Early morning, I called my sister and picked her up around 10. We went to the mall and managed to park near the mall. When we got there, there was a roadshow going on. Without wasting anytime, my sister and I joined the crowd and queued up as well. I just wanted to buy Female and Her World magazine but I couldn't find them at the bookstores.

Around 10.30 am, they opened the counter and I managed to get my magazines and even scored some goodie bags from BluInc. We filled in the lucky draw form and went around to redeem some of the free goodies in the magazines.

We walked around for a bit, I bought two large candles and air freshener. Then at 12.30 pm, we went back to the north court and waited for the lucky draw results. Our names were called and we won RM400 My Diamond shopping vouchers. What a lucky day for us.

After we took the vouchers, we went back and took everything out of the goodie bags. Most of the free gifts were from Lo'real, Maybelline, Biotherm, Revlon and so on. I just let the picture do the talking.                                                                  

The end

I am going back today. I can't wait.

Love,

Pointless

Dedicating the whole blog to someone who doesn’t appreciate you for always being there in their lives seems pointless. It’s like waiting for the moon to fall into your lap (ibarat menunggu bulan jatuh ke riba).

Love,

It's been a while...

It's been a while since I posted anything in my beloved blog. I'm sorry for abandoning you, my blog. I know there are no excuses to neglect my blog.

So an update of what I did for the past months:

April: I was in a relationship with my ex-boyfriend (we'd broken up before but we tried to get into a relationship again). I tried very hard to understand his 'busy' lifestyle (other than working, he likes to flirt with girls) but I decided I had had enough after he went out with a certified b**** and they flirted openly in his Facebook. So we broke up again. I never wanted to see his face again after the ordeal. I didn't have time to grieve over the lost as I was busy having fun hiking 25 kilometres in the woods and appreciating the nature.

May: Nothing much happened in this month, except that I was busy trying to finish the syllabus and marking exam papers.

June: Holiday month. I got to enjoy 21 days of lazing around the house. Plus, World Cup 2010 started in the mid of June, something which I have been waiting for for the past 4 years. I supported (and is still supporting) Germany, because of Miroslav Klose. I managed to watch most of the games until school started on the 21st June.

July: I have to say that this was the saddest month to me as Germany lost to Spain in semi final. It was the gloomiest day for me, even worst than breaking up with someone. The rest of the month went by uneventfully.

Now it's August. I promise myself that I will update more often (fingers crossed) and maybe try to read as many books as I can to get some inspiration.

Till we meet again...

Love,

I'm back

I have been abandoning my blog, but most importantly my passion for writing for a few months, due to emotional distress and lack of awe-inspiring things which happened to me lately. But now I don't care because I love to write and I love to share with everyone about everything under the sun. I may not write everyday (due to other commitment), but I will try to make full use of my blog.

And the writing begins in the next entry...

Love,

Oh well is the favourite word of the day

Oh well, it’s been a while since I did Pilates. Ok, not a while, it’s been a long time ago actually (in denial). Now I am back doing it as often as time permits. Not that I do not have time at all but I am lazy (again, I am in denial), but not until I noticed that I have huge calves with enormous thighs to boot. Oh man, I know I am exaggerating but as a girl, whining and complaining about my body is part of my job description, right?

Seriously, I do hope and pray that I will fit into my baju raya, which consists of 2 kebayas and 1 baju kurung. I know I will have no problem getting into baju kurung, but I am afraid that I will be too mammoth for my kebaya (see, I am exaggerating and complaining again). I mean, next week, the Muslims will observe one month of Holy Ramadhan, then off to Syawal, or famously known as Hari Raya and usually on the first day of Raya, I always wear my finest baju raya to visit my grandmother. I know some of you may roll your eyes and mutter, “What a show-off!”, to which I am going to reply with, “Kenapa, jeles ke?”. D’uh, of course you will wear new baju raya with new shoes and new handbag when you go visiting, I mean, who doesn’t.

Let’s get back to the story. Lately, when I look at myself in the mirror, I will notice something unpleasant around my waist, thighs and arms. I think they look bigger each passing day (or am I hallucinating?). But the weird thing is, I still can fit into my old clothes. So please tell me, am I losing my mind or am I too obsessed in losing my weight? I want to be lighter, with no junks in the trunk and no cellulite on my thighs and calves. Plus, I want to look good in a bikini when I go island hopping with my sister next year (I just hope that I will not get arrested for indecent exposure, LOL).

Therefore, I make a promise to myself that I will lose weight, have flat abs, long slender legs and arms to match my body by end of this year. Fingers crossed! Toodles!

Love,

Not so new to blogging world

Well, hello there. I know no one is going to read this, but nonetheless, I still want to greet those who stumbled upon this blog by accident or those who purposely searching for this blog to know about my uninteresting and uninspiring life (oh well, you know who you are).

To make the story short, this is not my first time blogging and this will not be my first entry, although it is clearly the first entry in this blog (whatever that means). I have been blogging since 2005 using Blogspot until last year that is. I had to shut down the blog due to some private matters. Then I opened an account with Livejournal because I thought Livejournal is way cooler than Blogspot. Guess what, I was wrong. Livejournal is not as user friendly as Blogspot and now I am back here again.

So, some of you people out there may ask, what is my blog about. Honestly, I have no freaking idea on how to categorize my blog. I think there will be a mix of this and a dash of that. I will write everything under the sun, life, music, movies, books, fashion (although I am a fashion victim) and the list goes on. If you expect me to write in perfect and grammatical errorless English, then, I will have to escort you out of here. Oh well, I am only human and I am still in the process of learning. And yes, this blog will be in two, or maybe three languages (after I figure out this whole Chinese Star Word), depends on my mood.

Without wasting my precious time, let me begin my adventure in the writing world… in my second entry. Toodles.

Love,