Sometime it sucks, only sometimes

I have to admit, living alone sometimes sucks big time, especially when you have problems and you don't have anyone to talk to about your problems.

When it comes to sharing problems, I only share them with people I trust. So how many people do I trust in this world? Only 2. They are my sisters but 'fret not because I don't share everything with them. Some of them I prefer to keep to myself. I don't like to kiss and tell everything because some of the secrets are meant to be kept. Usually when it comes to relationship, I prefer to talk about it with my sisters because no one, not even my friends can understand them better than my sisters do. Even though they are too honest when giving their opinions, but I really appreciate their advises because they mean well and they don't want me to be broken-hearted by love. Well, sometimes we are too blind to see everything in front of us as we are being clouded by love.

Plus, I have problems trusting people. I had bad memories about TRUST. I used to trust so-called friends, only to be betrayed by them in the end. So now, I am extremely cautious and careful to whom I am sharing my stories with. Not everyone can be trusted. Some of them only want to know your stories and later spreading them to the whole world. I have had enough of these kind of people. To me, it is better if I just open up everything in my blog. Readers might be judging my stories but blog is the only tool who listens without being judgmental. That is the only way I prefer. 

Well, no matter what it is, some things are not to be revealed. Don't you think so?

Love,

Seldom is the keyword

I seldom post something in here anymore. The reason being is I am super duper busy with assignments, presentations and thesis. All those things have taken all my free time. I can say that I do not even have time to hang out with friends anymore.

I spend most of my time on the internet, doing research and going to the library to read. Yep, you read that correctly. I read. So what do I read? Everything, newspapers articles, intellectual books, journals which take a few days to be digested, basically I read everything. This is the sacrifice I have to make.

After one year, I will be a graduate again, a Master graduate to be precise. I will be making my parents proud, most of all I will be one step closer to achieve my life-long dream, to become a well-known academician or maybe a photojournalist, or perhaps an editor, whichever comes first. Bear with me, just for a little while longer. I promise I will write something intelligent in here.

Love,
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Presentation

The one thing I really despise when I become a part-time student again is presentation. I despise talking in public. I will become extremely nervous, i.e. stomachache, butterflies in the tummy (not in a good way), cold, the urge to vomit will become stronger by each passing minute, sometimes headache, backpain & etc. I don't know if anyone would call that stage fright. I would call it presentation-o-phobia.

But the best thing is, after the presentation, I often feel like the weight has been lifted off my shoulder. A feeling of satisfaction will creep in the moment I say "Thank you for listening" or "Thank you for lending your ears". I will feel like I'm on top of the world. I love the feeling so much and I will not even bother with the marks that I will get. Just being able to present and share my knowledge and opinion with my classmates make me feel excited.

Overall, doing presentation is not so bad at all, especially when you're not thinking about the nauseaness. Trust me.

Love,

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Merry Christmas!

I, Lonely Soul, would like to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas. May this festival brings abundant joy & happiness in your life! Ho ho ho!

*Picture taken from Google Image.

Love,

It's nearing to the end and the start of something new

It's the end of the year, it's December, my December, your December & every one's December. So how has this year been treating you until now? Did you have a good time this year? Found love? Got married? Delivered a baby? Or busy cracking your head reading all the journals just to complete your Masters study? Mine is the latter. Although I find it flattering to be called a post-graduate student, but sometimes I have to cope with the stress that comes with it. I won't call myself a student if I don't have a permanent brain damage. 

This year also marks the end of my relationship problem. After this I won't be in any relationship anymore. I'm done hurting myself, I'm done hurting my heart and I'm done hurting my eyes crying for all those non-sense. The last relationship I had didn't end so good. I was loyal but he cheated on me. I was a fool for believing in everything he said, turned out he only wanted my money. After he had done spending my money until I was broke, then he left me to be with a b*tch. Yes, you guessed it, he used my money to spend on that b*tch. I vow to myself that that would be the end of it. I don't want to get involve with anyone else after this. Enough is enough. I just want to concentrate on my job and study. Getting my Master Degree is the most important thing to me.

I'm hoping next year, 2012 will bring lots of good things to me, money, career, study, health and family. I have set my targets on a few important matters. What are they? Well, I'll reveal after I have accomplished my mission. Stay tune! 

Love,